14 May 2010
I wonder do i deserve?Do I Deserve to be punish?I Noe im easy going,But still i jus wan to make people laugh no matter hu.But dis sensation in me.Its either i choose a path of freedom or path of destruction.Jus one wrong move n i cud jus cease to exist.I have a Family Whereas i so laid back didnt do much for them but for her.And now wen i tink of it i still have my grands.Im regretting b4 death n its felt more than death. Hw shuld survive? Do Human desire is dat strong??Den wats mine??What isit dat u all have dat i dont?? Izit DARE????If It is dat is wat i dont have rite..
DARE Huh??Maybe if i dare i scared of the outcome cuz im cautions to the MAX
My Possesive of protective towards my Own Is ignorant to people hu close to me..
If Friends n Lovers Fail To Hear me.. Den My last Rites Is Protect My Family
Haiz..This Dare is trying to dare me n for life if "u dont take a notice of wat surrounds u..Den Its will be the third time n U will Be a Disgrace human being dat u felt that u shud nvr born n u felt like running away no matter,i will tire ur mind ,i will make u weak,u cant even eat,u cant even wrk,u felt hopeless even wateva u do i will haunt u"
Felt Like daring is the way to step up the game in my life...i will use that dare that everyone uses on me n i will throw it like a spear thru ur chest...I SWEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No matter wat happen to me i jus glad dat i will spend the rest of my life, I tend to left my heart behind n without looking behind...
Fight on 7:51 AM
25 January 2010
Sometimes when between both parties...agreeble,acknoledge,understanding,advising n etc
But It reali takes too much to talk and jus cut SHORT n i Jus Hang Up...**** Bodoh....
Y Cant she stay to one point and choose wisely...for us konon...when kena trick den get drunk baru tau....Skrng kfc got new manager jus cause nasi lemak no more...somethings always changed jus endure laaa fickler...cant understand y im being naive all the time towards her(im not nice foever ok)i still got feeling like human have hearts ooooooook
..and when i start nagging ,she cant take it...bloody hell...U noe I feel like letting loose and let my devils run thru....I jus want to be a center of attention if she keep doing dat...tak prasan perr...Aku nak jad mcm kairi lak blh...j.t sang Damn girl,damn girl,damn girl damn...Im going balloonstic if this is the life i must go thru...but dont say cobaan...cuz one girl is****in irritating...i feel like punching thru walls even after that she still doing it...And so on so on so on so on so on...Y Am I Still Here with U......idiot try to remember y???dont say dono bakayaro
i feel sorry dat i scold thru here but wat to do...unless u read with anger lor
Fight on 12:30 AM
01 January 2010
My heart is like the sky,
it has special feelings
that lives and never dies.
You said nothing was as good
as when you looked my in the eyes,
now you dont care that im even alive.
I loved you and needed you,
but you cheated with no shame.
The sky cried and so did I,
but you still didn't care
if I lived or died.
The sky starts to rumble,
and begins to shake,
I realized the connections
it had made.
Anger builds inside me,
like a cheetah about to attack,
I went to call you up,
and said leave and don't come back!
The sky is now calm
and begins to shine.
It had just reacted to the feelings of mine.
I looked up at the sky,
a bird was circling me,
that bird represents freedom,
as free as it can be.
Fight on 7:12 PM
23 December 2009
I was tired to make any decision,1 couldn't explain properly, but for all i need is her.The Reason Of we fight was actuali..a msg from unknown guy of i noe not of...My anger couldnt kip cool..cuz after that my heart became distrust of whoever she get to noe or close of even the z.w was in...I jus want her...to be normal..i do have distrusted
mix feelings towards her
cuz after we been togeder for so long without prob suddenly a guy(unknown of wat he want even she dono but tink she tink he is jus normal fren but i hope her heart wont be SWAYED by aniting of wat he said,
especially if prob she jus couldnt stay away from trouble she doesnt noe haish,
y la u must be dat kind, been
wondering are u dat bored,so bored and i want to noe are u bored with me or something haaaaaaaaaaisss....) and z.w hu teach her
hw to go out at nite...Tak
penah3 aku buat gtu hah...I noe z.w got prob but its more beta jangan masuk n be inside the prob..All tis and that in the end
im the bad guy..cuz im like sort of obstacle she cant concentrate...
Im ur love rite, im the person hu u want to hug wif rite,i be dare if u need me rite...all tis i putted in my head...But in the end we ok...
i hope it does and be that way for as long as it can..Cuz u hu
i want to spend for my rest of my life with...
i bet u too...
so kip out from harms way jangan pandai2..manela aku tak overworried...I love U Siti Rahayu....Wont u need me?
Fight on 4:42 PM
Im currently at Bukit Batok Fire Station.When I first came in i tot that i will be welcome But Is not.Going Through harsh Mental Endurance and Knowlegde of the Equipment From "what is the name of the equip.m to from wat it made from and etc..So Far Always been bullied By My Mates but some few will help me but when my lifeline isnt dere they will tend to ask me sort of q. and i tink from i gain knowledge to humilation..My 1st fire was at sungei kadok a factory fire,It was Blazing hot even though my fire engine was 5km away...i was told to do supply water,so i didnt go in to put out the fire cuz rhino from woodlands was the 1st turn out...its was so tiring cuz it was early morn we do "hard" drills and even kena pump 50...boy wen i returned i was famished and glad to be back..all i need was a hug dat time to find out i was realli alive or not...haha
My 1st Breakin to Hdb House was fun i wud say cuz it was a karang guni house..boy it was messy and mess up...The Kol was actuali becuz the house was actuali unattended cookin and smell of burn aniway...i jus use one of the equip. to cut the chain of the window and proceed like a maze haha...
My 1st mini van on fire,was hot,tired and consuming my energy....i was the rhino crew of the 1st turnout...Its jus too bad we didnt get a hydrant to support the rhino..i was the one hu use water gun but for all i did its still raging and sound of exploding...i was like wth...untill the fire engine come...and it was put out 10 min later...not to mention the sun was our enemy too...Hooboy...experiencing the the life and situation like this i must survive cuz there many people waiting for me to b back hme...
Fight on 4:21 PM
20 December 2009
Now Things between Friends is quite complicated....
Rafie n Ruzi are no more status togeder...I olready tot of it...They cant click...i olready predict it....haha
Is and Hanis...i dono the story but it seems struggling.....
Khairi,i wonder hw r u my friend?...even u still like my besties...life goes on..
Aida,i wonder wats wif ur life???hahaha
i still....hav a long way to go...
Fight on 3:00 PM
After So Long, Im Back with Heart That became a puzzle pieces...I tink Blogging will be my best Friend.......
She made me think not To need her too much cuz others need her too ...den i hereby off my duty to her ...let her come to me rather than...cuz she say she get used of the last two years with her ex lifestyle...so that persona is not me its him...Y not get use to me but him...haiz i want to give up wat i want oready...theres only single spark of desire in me...i jus want u to tink bout me,take note of me,ask bout me, comfort me,to c u wen u are free its like hw im tis for u...dats y... but nothing changed her mind...she always say dunno with me...i bet its a cursed to get in my way....i preplan my life but my love life totally stuckup...cuz she tot i do not plan my life..If u reading tis...its probably the last ting i ever letting out of my mind...the rest May God Bless us of what future might take place...I don't tink i last long though...i will just have to await for my right time or right companion....Its always been said i find out dat aquarian n scorpian dont get along its probably too....All tis while i made her laugh and happy but deep down im totally pathetic, This feeling...
Y do tings repeat!!! I Want It To Go AWAY!!!!!!!!!DAMARE!!!!
Fight on 2:42 PM
